Wednesday, June 07, 2006

How to make me weep uncontrollably

On Friday Train Guy and I are headed back down to the Beach to stay with some friends of mine. As we are going in June and not in April, like last time, actually going into the ocean, the pool and on the boat are options. As these activities include water, I decided that it was time for me to suck it up and buy a swimming suit.

I’m not deathly afraid of trying on swimming suits. I have come to terms with my body shape and feel pretty good in a pair of jeans or pants and a tank top. The last time I went swimming suit shopping was about 7 years ago when 11 friends and I rented a beach house for the summer and I therefore spent two days out of every week in a, GASP, bikini. At age 32 there is no way in hell I’d suck myself into a bikini (or subject the general public to me in a bikini) and so I decided some shopping was in order. The first place I went to was Land’s End. Everyone has told me that they have great suits for all shapes and sizes so I bought a very plain spaghetti strap tank in the size I usually wear. Then, just to be sure, and because we are leaving on Friday, I thought it best to buy one in the size up as well. Well, they came in the mail yesterday.

This morning I tried on the suit in my regular jeans/tops size. Oh.My.God. Enough said. Then I tried on the larger size. Holy fucking Shit. Are they trying to kill me?! Even with the suit made of 100 % spandex I could barely squeeze my hips into it.

And let the weeping commence….

Up until a few minutes I LIKED the way I look. I think I look pretty damn good for 32. I only weigh 5 pounds more than I did in high school for Christ’s sake. I even like the way I look naked and have no problem taking it all off in front of Train Guy, 7 years my junior whose last girlfriend was all of 21. Until now. I actually started tearing up. Suffice it to say me in that swimming suit was not pretty. From the waist up I looked fabulous (if I do say so myself) but from the waist down I looked like the 10 story high StayPuff marshmallow man from Ghostbusters in a size 0 petite bikini bottom.

Needless to say I will not be bringing a suit with me and will instead wear shorts and a tank top on the boat and beach. I wouldn’t have gotten into the pool anyway but for the love of God, I did not need that ego blow today. Or hell, any other day for that matter. I wonder if my friend that we’re visiting has an old maternity suit lying around that I could borrow. I may be able to squeeze my hips into that.


Anonymous Anonymous said...

I know exactly what you mean...I'm 33, have 3 kids, the youngest is now 6 months old, then 8 and 6 and a half. I was getting my body back when we got pregnant last year, I just tried on suits, same reaction, but I think you looked a lot better than I did.

Don't sweat it, I'm sure you'll have a great time, tank top and all!

Have a great trip!

June 08, 2006 11:27 AM  
Blogger E said...

Thanks, lil'sis! I decided that I'm old enough to not give a damn! God, I really DO love being older.

June 09, 2006 5:57 AM  
Blogger t_cole said...

i love being older too. long as they make Ms. Clarol...

and here's my very best swimsuit shopping advice.
GO TO NRODSTROMS. you will pay more - and it will be worth every cent.
trust me on this.
trust me
trust me
trust me.

June 09, 2006 1:49 PM  

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